unfortunately, seeking support is more than a weakness.

"remember that seeking support is a strength, not a weakness." - ChatGPT

But everytime I seek support, I get negative feedback. Am I approaching wrong people?

Some of my experiences include asking help from a classmate on how to solve math problems, they just lend me my paper and talk stuff at my back while I do so; also asking help from my teacher but get public shaming instead. Asking help from my own family which are busy and unable to help me makes it out of question. In college, asking help from a teacher is an incompetence, and asking help from a fellow student is distracting them. 

Circle of friends? I have some but they have their own life and group to focus with, I got isolated. What about thesis? I don't know my members and it appears that I'm the only one who understands my own idea despite explaining to them, they eventually got tired of how I continuously change stuff just because it doesn't align to the objectives of the research; maybe it's my fault as a leader to not elaborate with my group but with getting fed up with me and and actually getting delayed because of me, I have to shoulder the responsibility alone.

My girlfriend has her own life baggage so I can't keep venting onto her, I'll just let her vent onto me and listen to her worries while I try to stay strong on my own.

I wonder where I go wrong, I am bound to fail once again and will be marked a disappointment with potentially having a QPI low enough to take the board exam in the future. 

I am struggling with trying to change from gaming to studying, and seeking help from anyone is straight up impossible. I don't know how to cope up, I'm gonna lose. 

Maybe it's trauma that's getting me from trying to connect with people but getting emotionally straining response and rejection instead. I think I should drop out after all, but I can't face my family like this.

I need to graduate, that's the minimum requirement...